I’m rated 70% for MH, I met with my VA psychiatrist for medication. She asked what my symptoms are and I told her that I feel an unbelievably crushing feeling of nothingness. That I’m just drifting through my life not happy, not angry, nothing. Grey all the time. So much so that pain feels better than nothing. She told me “I think you need something that gives you purpose and meaning. I don’t think meditation is going to help” and I said “ I have things I want to do, I just can’t do them” and after that she was very rude and almost doubtful of the things I was saying. she kept asking why I feel the way I do and when I answered “I don’t know” she just gave me a look and started typing.I don’t want to trigger a re-evaluation because I don’t understand what’s in my head