I'm currently on a rotation in Europe and working 24 on 24 off for the next few months. I've already been and still go to BH before I got out here. I thought I would be fine but there is so much down time and I constantly in my head. Suicidal ideation and stuff. I don't think I'm really a danger to my self but God damn. Stress from an upcoming ets, personal shortage, college, family issues and other stuff us driving me crazy. Im walking around wishing I was brave enough to shoot myself. We are already struggling with numbers and i dont want to be 'that' guy. I feel like I would be failing people. I'm tired of this shit.

I'll have a Hunt brothers meatlovers pizza.