I'm in the Reserve and was only active for 2 years. I've been back home for a year now and still feel like I have no purpose in life. I feel unfulfilled and like I'm not serving how I should. I feel like I half assed it by joining the Reserve and can't get the motivation to do any school or anything I planned on doing with my life once I was back home. It sucked being the Army's bitch and now I miss it. I've spent SO MANY hours reading similar posts on here but nothing has helped. I have no idea what to do with my life. Not to mention how much more stressful life is out here.

Coming to the Reserve after training for 2 years makes me want to have a stroke. First Sausage had his patch upside down all day last drill, everyones uniforms look like ass, and we look at power points all day. We don't even have the equipment to practice my MOS. I thought my 2 week AT in the field would be enough Army for me to get this out of my head but I just came back more empty.