I just want to rant really lol.

Well here I am. 0400 and I’m in line waiting to go to NTC. I was told I’m going to white cell so I’d assume that’s no so bad. I am also getting chaptered out of the army due to patterns of misconduct (to make it simple) and I was supposed to be out the 1st of this month. Everything was running smoothly during my process, I was applying to schools and other civilian things and I even have a house with someone. I’ve turned in all my gear from CIF in June and I had to go back Friday (August 25th) to go back and do a partial return 3 days before leaving. I am already phase 2 complete which doesn’t really mean anything cuz I’m still overusing my body for the military. I been hella depressed about this lately (going to NTC) and I’ve been having a lot of mood swings. I’m not trying to really get out of this. I was just hoping a miracle would happen and legal would say they approved my packet and all I needed was signatures before I left. But nope that’s not happening. These mood swings drove me to call 988 a few times and do a few other things that I won’t say here. I’ve made a few phone calls seeing if there’s anything I can do to get my orders for NTC revoked or anything but all I’ve been told was “that’s fucked up” or “well since you’re still in the army they can still do whatever they want to you” which is fine and understandable but fuck. My chain of command told me they were doing everything they can to get me out of it and they were pushing hard for it so I tried not to think much of it. Then I was told that since it was a commanding general decision to make the call I have to go otherwise I’d get a dishonorable discharge. I’m now at the point where I’ve accepted that I’m going to NTC and I’m just gonna keep my head down and do whatever I can to not cause a bigger problem there. I just wanted to come and rant. I know this is all just the army and it’ll be over before I know it.

I’ll take a a double cheeseburger and a McFlurry