Literally, I walked out feeling like . I didn’t realize the layers upon layers upon layers of emotional protection that I created over the years (especially in the Army). My therapist is flawlessly breaking each wall down and making me look at the pieces. Why are they here? What caused me to erect it in the first place etc. One topic we have been discussing is my (or lack thereof) healthy relationships in the Army. A lot of people have good friends and buddies that they met while serving. If you do, that is excellent. Keep in touch with them. For me, not so much. The lack of healthy relationships and being screwed over so much (“I didn’t screw Brett; Brett screwed Brett”) and just the constant day to day, can really cause us to slowly retreat into ourselves. Healthy relationships. That is something that is soooo simple, but how many of us know what it looks like for us? Sometimes the lack of, can really affect us; like me apparently…

As always, this is MY experience in therapy. I do feel much better than what I did a few weeks ago. I find myself noting certain things that bothers me and bringing them up during my sessions. That emotional investment to be the hard charger, he is slowly taking a nap. This allows a HEALTHY release with a person who actually knows what they’re talking about (again, my experience). I find my self feeling a lot warmer. Like the cloud that was over me, is beginning to dissipate with rays of sunlight (super corny). Lastly, I am finding that certain things that I would trip about, aren’t that deep. Yes, this is after only 3 sessions.

I totally recommend talking to a therapist. The 1 Source will give you 12 free sessions to a person off the installation. I used psychologytoday.com to find a completely neutral person outside the military. Yes I’m paying like $80 a session, but it’s worth it. Feel free to ask questions or PM me!

I’ll take 2 double cheeseburgers, no pickles or onions, a large fry (yes I have the app) and a small vanilla shake. I’m emotionally drained