i don't know if this is PTSD or just something else but mudane people seem to piss me off the reason why i think it might be my PTSD (has been more or less "treated") is because mine comes in the form of irrational anger/hatred and its taken a couple years of therapy and medication to get it to that point

an Army buddy gave me this job (left 4 years before i did) because he basically runs the division (incl international teams) he got me to work in what they call "the bunker" so i could just be on my own and just zone out and work but ive been getting promoted quickly and now i work across the office building

i realised i was not doing well when i went into the office and they were signing a card i thought it was for some one in the office and then i was asked to sign it i realised it was for karens fucking dog

for some reason the notion of having 150 something people sign a card for an animal just pissed me off irrationally i was thinking "how boring does your life have to be to sign a card for a dog that's just going to think 'this isn't food' "

ive been really struggling trying to readjust to Civilian life and i was doing well but i'm frustrated that i seem to be going backwards i just want to put the uniform on again but i can't due to service related injuries 2 of them permanent